In November 2009, a self-proclaimed Archaeology Lifer found herself employed as a Flight Attendant. She's not sure how it happened. No one really is. Here's what happened next...
Ok, so I’ve basically accepted that I won’t be wining NaNoWriMo this year.
I’m slightly disappointed in myself, but it’s OK because I actually tried this year. I’ve wanted to do it for ages, but never did. This year I put (some) effort in. Granted most of that effort has happened in the past four days where I’ve gone from 10400 words to 31450 words… but I just left it a little too long to finish it. If I hadn’t had to work today or for the next two days I’d probably pull it off, but I’m sitting here after my shift staring at my computer and I don’t even know where to start. My hands hurt, my brain hurts, my back hurts (shitty chair) and I want to go to bed.
BUT I’m still going to write for the next two days and see how close I can get, but the fact that I’m not going to keep going tonight basically rules out my chances of winning.
THE GOOD PART is that I’ve actually gotten a good chunk of my first draft of my novel done. This is a novel I have been wanting to write for SIX YEARS and it’s finally happening. I won’t be giving up on it now, I don’t think I could bear to, so however long it takes me, I will still have a first draft done in a little while, and then I can start work on getting it readable, which I am actually really excited about doing. And who knows where it will go from there?
THE OTHER GOOD PART is that while I have been thinking about this novel, doing this seems to have opened the floodgates to my creativity. I used to be one hell of a creative little thing, always drawing and writing and so on, but I lost that somewhere during University unfortunately. Now I have been writing this novel, I have also found my mind flooded with other ideas of stories I’d like to write. They’re just little things, and they’d need a lot of effort to flesh them out into a full novel, but let’s be real here - I got the idea for this novel from a nightmare I had SIX YEARS AGO. I barely remember the nightmare now, all I remember is the general idea of what was happening (the demon) and how it made me feel, and from that TINY FRAGMENT of a bad dream I have so far written over 32000 words with plenty more to come. That’s pretty fucking cool in my opinion.
So I’m signing off and going to bed, and essentially kissing my dreams of winning NanoWriMo2013 goodbye, but I’m OK with it I think. It doesn’t mean my novel is over, it just means the month is over. I don’t need a validation that I wrote 50,000 words in a month to make a good novel. The good novel comes from me.
So there’s my introspection for the night, and I’m going to bed!
9000 words in one day. 21700 words total.
I can’t do anymore. I need sleep.
If I can spend less time dicking around on the internet tomorrow then I stand a real chance of getting this done in the next four days, but first I really do need to sleep.
Fucking fuck everyone in the NaNoWriMo tag is posting shit like “YAY I WON” or “OMG 5000 WORDS TO GO CAN I DO IT?” and I’m over here like “FML I’ve got 29000 fucking words to write in, what, four days? Five?”
So I’m not going to sleep yet. I was going to, but I now feel tremendously inadequate and just thought hey fuck it I’ll just have a coffee….
Someone please keep me company. I’m starting this evening’s writing, and I’m about 4,000 words behind where I need to be.
I have 38,974 words. I’m hoping to make it to 42,000 tonight.
Let’s have a writing party.
Let’s fucking do it! I was going to go to sleep but I’m so behind! I reckon I’ve got at least another 2 hours in me!
I wrote like three paragraphs about the Abbot’s special blend of tea, and I’m in love with it. It’s literally my favourite thing I’ve written so far. About TEA. I’m so British sometimes it HURTS.
And I just hit 20,000 words! I’ve written 8,000 today, and I’m going for 10,000 or however many until I get sleepy! Hells yes! Tomorrow, MORE! I may still finish this beast on time!!
Ralph Peters in his 2013 NaNo pep talk (via blockfixer)